I'M BACK I THINK

I know everyone must have thought I fell off the face of the earth, and believe me sometimes I think I have to. I've been so busy taking care of the kids,house,bills and animals. I'm starting to wear down, finally. My husband has been gone for 7 months now and it's starting to feel like an eternity. I really don't miss him as much as I did at first it's weird I still miss him, but I'm learning to handle things on my own. I still love him to death and can't imagine my life without him. I guess I have so much on my mind right now that missing him has taken a back seat. I keep telling myself it will all be over before I know it. Our 6 year wedding anniversary is on the 16th. That's not going to a good day for me. Hopefully he'll remember to call me. If not things will not be good for him. My allergies are acting up now that the weather is starting to change. I've been trying to rest when the kids are calm or occupied. I'm starting to lose too much weight which is most likely why I'm tired all the time. My starting weight when my husband left was 140 which I was perfectly happy with. My weight now is 128. It's not like I'm not eating I eat all day. However at 0630 I hit the ground running and I don't get to bed until 2200 (and they sat housewives don't work). I've been doing a lot of yard work also. My oldest had her first football game (which she cheers for) this past Sat. She did really well, however after the game she pitch a fit like I've never seen, but hey if I could pitch a fit and get away with it trust me there would be times I would do it also. So I made her sit down right there at the football field and get it out of her system and when she was done she felt better. We came and talked about it. She is going through a lot herself. To only be 5 and deal with everything she's dealing with, she's doing pretty well. I think we sometimes forget about the kids when our husbands deploy, we know it's hard on them but do we really know the magnitude of it? Also I don't know if the two week R&R was a good thing for her either. It's like we teased her and then ripped her heart out. The next two weeks are going to be crazy we have a lot or Dr. appts. going on, there goes my extra money to pay for gas. Dewitt Army Medical center wouldn't allow us to be seen on the economy even though we live 80 miles from base so I have to drive to a radar clinic which is closer only 60 miles away. My youngest has her own issues and the military doesn't have the specialist she needs, so one of the appts. is @ UVA which has the best urology clinic around, at least they let us go there instead of Walter Reed. I hate driving there. I want to thank everyone who has checked up on me to see if I was still alive. Nice to know that there are people out there who are interested in my messed up life (at least for now). Again I keep telling myself not much longer not much longer.

Peace to all
April